Friday, January 13, 2012

On blogging, lately.

Hello, blog. I've missed you. You see, I have a kindle now, and the tiny keys on the kindle aren't really conducive to typing long blog posts. And since I tend to do my nightly checking of blogs/facebook/email with that instead of the laptop, well, you get the picture.

In the same vein, I'm frustrated with my blog. I feel stifled - like my voice is lame and pedestrian and unoriginal and just...blah. I'll write out posts, then self-edit them and end up not posting at all. It makes me sad, because I used to love to feel like I had something to say, and now I hate what I have to say. So I make lists that are digital place markers, but uninteresting to the general public.

I don't know why I care. I know generally who my audience is, and really, my tiny plot in the landscape of the internet is really easy to overlook. (and see, right now I want to self-edit because my inner snark is telling me I sound whiney and self-absorbed. Oh poor me. That voice in my head just never stops.) So I think about blog posts that never get written and then feel bad because I never blog.

Blah. I know, boring. But I wanted to get that out. Just to show to myself that I still have a voice, whatever it may be. I also want to set a goal to try to not let my inner snark keep me from saying what I want to say, even if it's lame or not well-thought-out or unoriginal. I just don't want to keep letting myself down anymore, you know?

Oh, and happy 2012. I want to list a (re)solution list sometime soon. I have some very specific goals for 2012. It is going to be a special year.

4 comments:

Apryl said...

I know how you feel, but DON'T STOP BLOGGING!!! You are great. You have great things to say. I love your blog! And no, you are NOT whiney.

Amy Sorensen said...

I have been feeling the same way about my blog. That maybe I have said everything there I have to say. It also seems like fewer and fewer people read blogs...a fast Facebook update instead.

still.

I've been blogging more. I don't feel like what I've been writing is up to my usual standards. But I decided that for me, the only way to get through the slump is to push on.. Keep writing anyway.

AND you do have a voice! I would be super sad if you stopped blogging!

fluentbrittish said...

I have felt this way, too, lately.

But we make it through, don't we?

And I don't think your voice is lame at all. I love reading your posts. You've inspired many of my own posts!

Kasandra Mathieson said...

Becky, found your blog on my old laptop and realized that I hadn't added you to my list in my new one! Glad to find you again and look forward to reading your voice! I am guilting of facebook updates but am trying to blog more....I usually do more scrapbooking.